Wednesday, 12 December 2012

12/12/2012

Commute:
I'd planned on going long this morning, I set an alarm and everything. When the afore mentioned alarm went off, I got up, squeezed out yesterday's lunch and contemplated my motivation to do said NRR long. It wasn't particularly high, in fact, I felt overcome with meh.

I considered having to write these very words, admit to the world I'd softed out. I thought about Ray on Tuesday when he asked me if I'd won SKCC Crits and I told him I hadn't even finished. Disappointment (in others) is a highly motivating force for me, it elicits shame, and I'll put myself through hell to avoid shame. Yet, even with the knowledge I would feel shame in the future, I went back to bed post poo.

I think I'm going to take a short mental break from "training" and work out some goals for racing.


D: 15.6km
A: 91m

PMPW: 90kg

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